Editing Amy Dallon (section)

== Personality==
Panacea felt a gnawing sense of guilt, as every second she took to herself was a second where she was not helping other people, while at the same time growing to resent her patients.<ref name="3.x" /><ref name="Tarot">The Star<br />"Upright:  Hope, spirituality, renewal, serenity<br />Reversed:  Lack of faith, despair, discouragement"<br /><br />Panacea<br /><br />'''Panacea is hope, but for others, not herself.  She is renewal, spirituality, and serenity when she finally does find herself, reinventing herself within the Birdcage.  Her crisis is one of a lack of faith/uncertainty in her abilities, falling into the depths of despair, and hopelessness.''' - [https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1ntXwQcmkioq4NPPayBEIjA4dHPD-TXpjU1bnul3udWg/edit#gid=0 Major Arcana], bolded addition by Wildbow.</ref>

Like her [[Marquis|absent biological father]], she held herself to a strong code that governed her behavior and use of her power.<ref>“You’re your father’s daughter.  Both of you are bound up in rules you’ve imposed on yourselves.  His rules defined his demeanor, the boundaries he worked within, the goals he sought to achieve and how he achieved them.  They were his armor as much as his power was.  I would guess your rules are your weakness.  Rather than focus you, they leave you in free fall, nothing to grasp on to except your sister there, and we both know how that has turned out.” - [https://parahumans.wordpress.com/2012/10/06/prey-14-10/ Excerpt] from [[Prey 14.10]]</ref> She refused to kill using her power or interfere with human minds, even to heal them. Breaking these guiding tenets caused her considerable mental stress.

Amy has bad coping mechanisms and natural inclination of absolute black and white morality. Once her coping fails due to stressful events, like her time with the Slaughterhouse 9, she falls back hard on her black and white thinking and doesn't try to stop herself from doing so. Her line of thinking is rather backwards and rooted in a downright toxic faith, where instead of using logic to reach an appropriate conclusion, she will start from the endpoint she wants and conclusions she worked out in advance and work backwards from there. She is incredible stubborn-minded, and will throw up total unthinking, uncompromising and inflexible resistance when she comes across a flaw or obstacle in her thinking to reach her desired conclusion, instead of correcting her stance. If she believes you are a Villain, she will never change her mind. If she believes she is a Villain, she will decide she might as well be selfish and take what she "needs", before giving herself up and going where bad people go(i.e the Birdcage) to make amends.<ref>'''DemoIceBoss:'''  Dang ok, I've heard that before. Do we know the actual reason as to why she did what she did? Or is an entire mountain of issues caving all at once?<br><br>'''Wildbow:''' She's someone with bad coping mechanisms and a natural bent toward absolutist black and white thinking. When her coping mechanisms fail, she nosedives into the 'black' in her black and white thinking without even really trying to stop herself.<br><br>All of Amy's behavior is framed even before she takes Victoria to the abandoned house and alters her in mind and body. You can see it in effect in the frustrating Undersider conversation where she's healed Victoria. She's rooted in a toxic kind of faith, where rather than start from logic and then work her way to an appropriate conclusion, she starts from the endpoint she wants and the conclusions she's worked out in advance and works her way backward.<br><br>Confronted with an impassable obstacle between where she is and that conclusion, she stonewalls, throws up a total and complete, unthinking resistance, rather than amend her stance. This is uncompromising and inflexible. She decides you're a bad guy? Nothing you say will really change her mind. She decides ''she's'' a bad guy? Might as well be selfish then, take what she really 'needs' (her intent, not mine) from Victoria, then make amends by going to the Birdcage, where bad people go.<br><br>This is not, I find, an especially uncommon way for people to be & to think. I know a lot of people with that kind of mentality, but most of the time, their lives don't really provide many opportunities for people to really see it in action. At most, a few wonky life events might bring out the worst in them, where reality and the conclusions they're clinging to get far enough apart you can see the disordered thinking between A and B. For Amy, the S9 definitely count as a wonky life event, and she has the power to stray ''well'' away from healthy thinking. - Comment by Wildbow on Reddit, [https://forums.spacebattles.com/threads/worm-quotes-and-wog-repository.294448/page-24?post=83507509#post-83507509 archived] on Spacebattles</ref>

Amy felt extremely lonely; her adoptive mother, [[Carol Dallon]], never really wanted her and treated her coldly and suspiciously,<ref>[http://forum.rpg.net/showthread.php?707142-Where-I-Read-Worm&p=17388925#post17388925 Wildbow on RPG.net]</ref> while her adoptive father, [[Mark Dallon]], suffered from clinical depression and found it difficult to look after her. The only person who consistently showed her affection was her sister, [[Victoria Dallon]].

She also felt a strong attraction to Victoria. Although she kept this a secret, fearing that it would ruin their relationship, it caused her to feel extreme jealousy towards Victoria's boyfriend [[Gallant]].

During her time in [[New Wave]] Amy was terrified of combat and avoided it completely.<ref>Amy perhaps most of all.  She’d never been a fighter.  She’d hated the idea of appearing on the battlefield. - [https://www.parahumans.net/2019/10/26/sundown-17-8/ Excerpt] from [[Sundown 17.8]]</ref>

As a result of these various sources of stress, Amy was "steadily crumbling" at the start of Worm.<ref name="SB1">[https://forums.spacebattles.com/posts/15028199 Wildbow on Spacebattles]</ref>

===Reputation===
Panacea is an admittedly powerful cape that has already drawn international attention.<ref name="3.x eAttention">“But I got them anyways, and I got international attention over it.  The healer.  The girl who could cure cancer with a touch, make someone ten years younger, regrow lost limbs. - [https://parahumans.wordpress.com/2011/09/20/interlude-3-2/ Excerpt] from [[Interlude 3]]</ref> As such she was targeted by various nefarious organizations.

===Relationships===

====[[Victoria Dallon]]====
Amy loves her sister dearly, they grew up together after all. However in a moment of weakness, she changed Victoria's brain chemistry to reciprocate her romantic feelings. She was prevented from correcting her mistake due to her sister's understandable revulsion to the idea.<ref name="11h 277" />

Her attempts to fix things only making things worse.

When she was placed in the Birdcage, Amy got her first tattoo in remembrance of her crime against Victoria.<ref name="SA End">Amy gets a tattoo so she has a reminder of Victoria and the crime Amy committed against her, without having to dwell so heavily on it. - [https://forum.rpg.net/showthread.php?682837-Worm-Bet-the-Alternate-Thread-The-Star-Wars-Prequel-Trilogy-Still-Sucks-Though&p=16772221#post16772221 Comment by Wildbow regarding Story Arc]</ref>

She eventually was able to restore Victoria's body,<ref name="30.7" /> but their relationship was irreparably damaged.

Amy continues being obsessed with Victoria, stating that nothing ever could compare.<ref name="II16.y">[[Interlude 16.y II]]</ref>

[[Wildbow]] explicitly confirms that [[Victoria#Aura|Victoria's aura]] had no effect/influence on Amy's behavior and sexuality.<ref>Untrue, the premise Victoria's aura has affected Amy on that level has no basis in the story, WoG, or otherwise, and is in fact contradicted in the very first chapter they appear. Removed as this is misleading misinformation stated as fact. - Comment by Wildbow on Reddit, archived on Spacebattles</ref><!-- https://forums.spacebattles.com/posts/102530253 --><ref name="reddit eAuraNotFactor" /><ref>I think you're really reaching with the 'general propensity'.<br><br>I think you're reaching more with 'all those WoG posts about how Vicky's Aura did affect her sexuality'. If 'all those' posts existed then they would have been posted a ''lot'' in the amy defense threads. But the only one people cite is a "that's interesting, isn't it?" type post that people seem to be taking and running with.<br><br>My early-in-my-writing-career reticence to outright and directly say "This was rape" in conjunction with Amy not wanting to outright admit what she did is being twisted. Failure as a writer, maybe. I make mistakes.<br><br>At the same time, I do think it's a mark against people's character when they leap strenuously to the defense of Amy, when what she did was rape anyway. Take the most charitable interpretation of what she did, disregard everything I said in the link above and you still have gross bodily violation (literally violating and warping the body) against someone who had protested, resisted, and been incapacitated. Done for selfish reasons, as Tattletale outlines an alternate path that Amy ignores.<br><br>To say ''that's'' not rape, Victoria didn't remember, is little different from saying 'it's not penis in vagina sex so it's not rape' in conjunction with 'she was sleeping/drugged so it doesn't matter what I did.'<br><br>If you take the aura thing and run with it, it translates so easily to the same kind of sentiment that says, "She dressed provocatively, so she kind of deserved it/she owns some of the responsibility." As a recent chapter outlines, a lot of people were in the area for Victoria's aura over time. Only one violated her.<br><br>That ain't great. - Comment by Wildbow on Reddit, archived on Spacebattles</ref><!-- https://forums.spacebattles.com/posts/62667076 --><sup>[[Amy#Trivia|&#91;*&#93;]]</sup>

====[[Tattletale]]====

Following the [[Battle at the Bank]], she had a deep-seated dislike of [[Tattletale]] stemming from her attempts to manipulate her.<ref name="3.x" /><ref name="SB1" /><ref>“You sound like Tattletale.  That’s not a compliment.”<br /><br />“My ability to read people is learned, not given, I assure you.<br /><br />[...]<br /><br />I suspect you’ve never been around someone who actually paid attention to you.”<br /><br />“Tattletale did.  And Skitter.”<br /><br />I startled at that.<br /><br />“I meant on a long-term basis, but let’s talk about that.  I imagine they were telling you ‘No, you aren’t.  You can be good.'”<br /><br />“Yeah.” - [https://parahumans.wordpress.com/2012/10/06/prey-14-10/ Excerpt] from [[Prey 14.10]]</ref>

Amy did not like her at all, and considered her the sole cause of her life unraveling, to the exclusion of other factors.

====[[Taylor Hebert]]====
It is unknown if they actually trusted each other. Amy ultimately appreciates the fact that Taylor attempted to help her during her breakdown, even if she didn't succeed.<ref>[[Cockroaches 28.3]]</ref>